When the adrenaline wears off, Friday 3 April 2020, Day 16

Oh here she comes, watch out boys she’ll chew you up.

I have no idea what the time was when I woke, I still have my head buried under my quilt, I was paranoid the window cleaner would call the police so I had a few red wines last night in case it was my last for a while. Believe me I am paying the price, my head has the cast of 42nd Street tap dancing in it, I am sweating and Boke! I can smell sick.

I argue with myself for about 10 mins, get up, stay in bed, get up, the desperate need to pee eventually pushes me to move. I check myself out in the bathroom mirror and flinch, I look like the friggin joker and it’s no a good look for me. I have red wine wings and sick is crusted on my jammie top, or it could be super noodles I have a vague memory of eating them. I smell of stale sweat and leaked pee, I know I should strip my jammies off and have a shower but I’m feeling a tad lightheaded so don’t want to take the chance of passing out.

I check the time it’s 9.30, I have a team catch up video call at 10.30 so I headed back to bed for a while. Woke up at 10.20 and prised my tongue from the roof of my mouth oooft, I’ve taken off some skin, I should have had a glass of water it would have been so much easier. I am still not fit to have a shower, so I slip my orange jumper on as it brings a bit of colour to my cheeks. Thank fuck the team canny smell me through video.

I have a welfare video call with a mentee at 11.30 to ensure that they are coping, that’s a laugh me making that call after what happened yesterday. What am I gonna say, keep motivated, stay busy, exercise, do your college work, don’t fling yourself half naked at the window cleaner! I make the call but sit on my hands so they canny see I have the shakes.

The day is dragging big time, I have already sang 24 bottles of beer on the wall 24 times and it’s still only 1.30, I am still no washed!

I check to see if there is any post, there isn’t but there is a couple of handwritten notes, one from Tam Hughes at no 67 saying he will service my windows anytime and one from the window cleaners Misses telling me to keep my hands off and she is going to kick my head in when she sees me.

For the first time ever I am glad of the lockdown.

Que tengas un buen fin de semana x